25 July 2012
From the morning I had made the same mistake..over and over again...I accidently skip subuh prayers.
and noticed that I had a few miscalls...I know the person who called me is trying to wake me up. But, due to my 'tido mati' problems, I can't hear the ringing, even the phone was not even on silent.Such a stupid thing to do... Perempuan tidur mati.. Teruk betul
Due to that, I planned to see that person (yg kejut pagi tadi)...to apologize. I know he will be made at me. But at least I've got some effort to make it up with him. I text him that perhaps I will be waiting for him outside his class, if he 'x terpujuk'... and I really meant it.
I was there, just outside his class, 20 minutes before it ends.. so I waited for him in a spot that I think he will passed by. At 10 am his class ended, but I didn't see him...so I waited a little longer, but there was no sign of him anyway. I text him 10 minutes later and he said he was already inside his next class at another place...he asked why. Sadly, I just let him down.
Frustrated....
I went back..to find the class money. It took 20 minutes as Ekin n Alyn can't find the money before that I had to do it myself. Alone in the room kept me thinking about the effort I am doing to at least, make him smiled, it all just fails.
Depressed....
At THO co-op, something or perhaps someone just make me mad again. To find my set of 20 photo copied papers, it took almost half an hour...and I was treated like "what do you want actually? your stuff is not here dude..."
Frustrated....
Gone to class, came back to THO with Alyn, and like freakin fast the lady (yg layan tadi) found the photocopied papers...and I was like, slamming the door and cursing the young lady..(mencarut time2 ramadhan)
Angry...
In the class, just to find a pen to sign the attendant, I figured out something else that make me wanna throw tha tables and chairs...I totally forgot my pencil case. It it wasn't for today's subject which is STATISTICS, I won't even be needing a pen. But because of that subject is AVAILABLE today, I had to go back to the room to get that stupid pencil case.
Sigh...
That was only half of the day...I don't know what will happen after this... maybe facing with another problem that might make me wanna kill myself
But in everything, what matters the most is the feeling of this guy. That I haven't settled yet with him...
He's the only one I've got.
I'm sorry Ahmad Nazim Najmie
Yours forever,
Sarah
